Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Am I a good enough friend?

It seems like Paul and I have witnessed some hard troubles - health troubles, and different things in the last year with some that we love dearly. It has made us reflect many times, possibly still not enough though. I have had many thoughts, but one thought I had tonight as I read my friend's blog about her family's health trials in the last year made me wonder if I would have the same kind of support that she described if my family and I had to go through such a hard trial ourselves. This is not about questioning the hearts and efforts of my friends, but about questioning if I have been a good enough friend myself? If I had a life changing event happen tomorrow, would I have been a good enough friend that people couldn't help but want to check on my family and me regularly? I've thought of this a few times as I've tried to help those I love in the last year. It seems like everyone close to me that has suffered hard things in the last year has had an incredible support system, partly because they had always been an incredible support to others themselves. I am definitely not saying that we just make friends so that we will have a resevoir of them to help us in times of need, but it is an interesting question to consider.

I guess I'll just keep trying to be a good friend and family member and resolve to give deeper support and not just be an acquaintance or mere contact. I want to be there for people.

As I read my friend's blog about her family's year of trials, and she described the endless support they received, I thought it said something very positive about her and her family.

Now to analyze it a tiny bit further, I am also not saying that we only serve those who have been good to us. Not at all, I just wonder if we're not more inclined to be a little bit more mindful of those who have been there for us. So I just hope I am there for those around me.

I could probably go on and on about a lot of other reflections we've had recently, but it's almost exhausting. I do know one thing: Miracles happen and I have learned to pray for them more than ever before. I love my friends and family so much and will still offer prayers when I know of nothing else to offer.

This is kind of an odd post and I'm not asking for comments about me. Only the topic. Anyway, I may regret posting this, but hopefully my thoughts have made some sense tonight.

Soon I will post on a surprise that some of you haven't seen yet! But I am waiting for a few more pictures to be emailed to me!