Coming to Grips

There is a word that keeps coming to my mind lately:  paralyzed.  I realize that this or that feeling or the other sometimes paralyzes me into NO action.  For instance, I have such a hard time knowing who & what to vote for because I don't know what information is credible out there so I'm paralyzed into indecision on who to vote for right up until I'm taking pencil to ballot.  Or on seemingly smaller elections, I'm sometimes paralyzed into not voting at all.  This really bothers me because I do believe in being a devoted, participating citizen.  Anyway, something to improve on. 

And so the other key example that I've been paralyzed in (have you heard that word enough yet?) is .... blogging!  I'm sure this comes as no surprise.  But because I have elaborate blog posts come to mind, I end up putting them off until I can do them justice.  Then those memories & feelings are void of justice all together.  I'm probably stating a common problem. 
Oh yeah! (light bulb fills head that is filled with air), I think that's called 'writer's block'. 
... Writing ... I miss writing.  Which is why I need to just post; post anything.  I do feel like blogging can be a very good thing.  I have missed it.  So, this is my start.  Writing ... anything. 

So, let's see each other back here soon.  I am coming to grips with the fact that my stage of life right now is not conducive to my idealistic dreams of elaborate posts.  And so, I will not stay immovable.  I will blog.

(You like that dramatic conclusion don't you?  That's what I thought  ... I know you've missed me because I've missed me - and apparently my narcissism too). 

And on a note about much more important things ... my girls!  Taya is loving Joy School & has missed it over the Christmas break, and she is doing a great job on her new 12" training wheel bike that Santa gave her.  She is still as sweet a big sister to Dyllan as ever.  And she keeps us on our toes with smart plans to get what she wants (yikes) & wordy, witty comments throughout the day.  And Dyllan - has hit a development spurt lately.  She loves to jump on our laps, stand on our laps, roll around both ways everywhere, say 'dada, lala', & just for me, an occasional 'mama'.  She is showing more & more personality & smiles a lot.  Still a bald little q-tip of a head on a long body, with a beautiful smile - & I really say that oh so lovingly.  Parts of her look like Taya to us, but overall, she has her own look (somewhat resembling my sister, Tiffany's baby pictures, which is endearing to me). 

We had a wonderful Christmas.  Several times a day for weeks I thought to myself ... I love Christmas time.  I really do.  I am sad that it can be a hard time for some, but am happy that life is full of happiness & special gifts right now to make the season that much fuller.  I've been enjoying my new bike trailer that Paul gave me for Christmas, giving me the chance to take the girls on breezy bike rides ... As well as a couple of photography books.  Soon, I'll share more of the photos I've been taking and spending my hobby time on.  Perhaps 1 or 2 at a time without an in-depth post to go with it is how I should think of it ... after all, I am trying to come to grips, right?

Below, I'll leave you with 2 photos from our recent Thanksgiving/family reunion on my side:  And for kicks, see if you can find the 5 things I eliminated in photoshop in the first photo.  I think I would title the second photo:  'We ain't got no brains' - complete with my family's sense of humor & drama. 

(Do you think that I can wind up with a long post, complete with a couple of pictures - having lost parts of it, re-edited it more than once, taken forever and a day for pictures to upload on my computer, and still call this post 'Coming to grips'? ... Maybe it's 'Trying to come to grips'  : )  )